X Musty Crusty Dusty
I'm having a lovely day so far. The roommates have left to their families, and Cat and I have been doing whatever. I even sang out loud to myself. We've even left the backdoor open so Cat can go in and out the snow as she pleases. Lucky I don't pay for heating. Etc Etc.
I haven't posted in a while, so it was fun to catch the vibe of 'oh, you know what would be cool? Writing a lil posty, maybe'.
Montreal has continued to be the best of times, and the worst of times. Frankly, more in the downward direction, but c'est la vie.
I worked till late last night and then walked out as clients were coming in. So fucking bored of the cesspool that is. Well. All this shit. Anyway, those stories are not for you. Fauxget about it. Let's do a refresh. What's on the docket?
🌼 Well. I've run the dishwasher, which I'm always scared about. So hi5.
💿 Since a few days ago, I've got back onto the coding trail. I did a lil p5.js X html/css action with one of the SuperHhi tutorials and its been lovely.
Today I did a bit of Wordpress tutorial. Although, as expected, I gotta go slowww.
👛 A friend has lined up a gig for me, doing the backend for a nonprofit. They have a mockup that needs code. Being a Wordpress Wuss, I have been very avoidant with it, so. Happy its a vibe for me to dive in.
🌼 I have TWO stragglers xmas parties. I might skip the one at the community center, mainly because. I think I want to be around regular queers. I think I want more friends that are not part of a larger friend circle atm.
🤡 Some folks were over to work on some install stuff yesterday for this new years show, and well. I am clearly not at my best, and I think branching out would be good for all of us. I get really passive aggressive judgy, in a way that I can't catch when I'm in it. And I'd really like to reign it in, because. It is who I am, but its not how I like to be. And I really prefer people experience chill and kind me.
🌷 Oh, a week or two ago. I hosted the 'Come chill w me and my work!' thing. It was lovely.
I was so tired from working till 6am the night before, I wasn't as present as I'd like. So, its a bit of a blur. An anxious blur, even. Lots of things didn't work, lol (thats hardware 4 u, tbh).
You know what?
🌷🦋 For the first time, maybe ever. I felt the adoration. Like, a genuine interest in me and my work.
Absolutely fucking terrifying. Did not know what to do with it. Very uncomfortable. And also, fucking finally.
It is really cool to know that people are into it, some people even 'get' it. Which, frankly, rarer and rarer as I make more with code and stuff.
🌼 I want to do another one, maybe feb or march. I want to launch this thing I've been working on anyway (which, I need to get new parts for, because the chip conked out a few days before the show).
🤡 I also went home to move things out of my exes. I learnt someone I love is dying on the other side of the world. I learnt I have so much love, and so much shame, and so much guilt.
🪐 Saturn return continues to kick my ass. Everything is a fucking test, and I am so aware of the tightropes I am walking. Mentally, physically, financially.
💿 So, its extra nice to be able to return to code today.
👯👯👯
I'm going to do yoga in the middle of the hallway.
If not today, tomorrow. I'm so fucking excited.
👯 👯 👯
####TV Shows n stuff
Also. Brett Goldstein. What fucking gem. I have had Shrinking on rotation with Evil. Just introduced Lincoln Lawyer to it yesterday, which is so badly written in so many ways -- but also scratches the itch for comfotable predictability. Evil is for when real life is so terrifying, horror can distract you. And Shrinking (like Ted Lasso), is just. Nice. Human. Lovely. Good job Brett (and he's been around for a while!).
Also. Ilana Glazer. I only watched like 25 minutes of her special so far. But I forgot!!! How amazing, and succicnt, and funny, and horny, she is. Horny as in sex-positive.
I always put Jenny Slate in that category, but lowkey not the mood after the Blake Lively supporting bullshit with the DV film.
Lol. Haha. I guess I absorb a lot of celebrity gossip.
I do reference Ilana's character in Broad City a lot though. I think I watched a couple of seasons, but maybe never finished it. V Slut 4 Slut energy.
Anyway.
2024!!!!
¿🤡 Fucking terrifying. A force of nature. So transformational, the tarot cards just fly out to tell you things.
Maybe I'll do some tarot right now.
Cheers!!!
Bon Courage!!!
🏆 Also, Chris Fleming's Bimmi Garden pilot on youtube is maybe the best thing ever.
🐬 Do you ever think about how we have so many choices in media now? Even in TV shows. To the extent that its difficult to even tell what is currently in production, unless your streaming network highlights the fuck out of it?
Wow, so much pop culture nonsense in my brain rn. Wonder what I forgot to make room for it.
Chip chop chip chop. Irish Exit, etc etc. Goodbye.